Idiosyncrasies

im amazed at life.

im overjoyed to bear witness to new love unfolding from old friendships.

im sorry to behold old loves (and some new ones) falling spectacularly apart.

there’s drama in everyday life… no matter how boring you think things are.

im excited about the future’s uncertainties, and afraid of them at the same time

i want to hold on to the perfect moments of the past,

but not have to repeat them, because they arleady turned out beautifully.

if
i could just freeze frame at the emotions i felt at the time, and bask
in them, that would be enough (im able to do that when i hear songs or
watch movies that remind me of those moments…they allow me to feel
the way i did all over again)

but all these remind me that life just keeps going

the wheels keep turning…

and although i want to yell, "Stop world, i’m getting off!"

or, in the language of my childhood…"Time first!"

i can’t really do that.

i have to keep up or be left behind.

there’s an adventure up ahead…

i know i’ve lingered (in this state) too long because…

instead of wanting to dive in head-first…

instead of being tickled pink and being so excited about it that i can’t sleep…

i’m hesitant.

waaay to hesitant.

i don’t want to move…

…but at the same time, I DO.

hell.

what now?

i know it’s good for me, yet i hesitate.

i hesitate because i know these things come at a price…

so with eyes closed…

one foot forward…

READY…FIRE…AIM!!!

bahala na si batman.

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